The Thunder, Perfect Mind

"I was sent forth from the power,
and I have come to those who reflect upon me,
and I have been found among those who seek after me.
Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,
and you hearers, hear me.
You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.
And do not banish me from your sight.
And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.
Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!
Do not be ignorant of me.

For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am the mother and the daughter.
I am the members of my mother.
I am the barren one
and many are her sons.
I am she whose wedding is great,
and I have not taken a husband.
I am the midwife and she who does not bear.
I am the solace of my labor pains.
I am the bride and the bridegroom,
and it is my husband who begot me.
I am the mother of my father
and the sister of my husband
and he is my offspring.
I am the slave of him who prepared me.
I am the ruler of my offspring.
But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.
And he is my offspring in (due) time,
and my power is from him.
I am the staff of his power in his youth,
and he is the rod of my old age.
And whatever he wills happens to me.
I am the silence that is incomprehensible
and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.
I am the voice whose sound is manifold
and the word whose appearance is multiple.
I am the utterance of my name.

Why, you who hate me, do you love me,
and hate those who love me?
You who deny me, confess me,
and you who confess me, deny me.
You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,
and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.
You who know me, be ignorant of me,
and those who have not known me, let them know me.

For I am knowledge and ignorance.
I am shame and boldness.
I am shameless; I am ashamed.
I am strength and I am fear.
I am war and peace.
Give heed to me.
I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.

Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.
Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,
and you will find me in those that are to come.
And do not look upon me on the dung-heap
nor go and leave me cast out,
and you will find me in the kingdoms.
And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who
are disgraced and in the least places,
nor laugh at me.
And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.
But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.

Be on your guard!
Do not hate my obedience
and do not love my self-control.
In my weakness, do not forsake me,
and do not be afraid of my power.
For why do you despise my fear
and curse my pride?
But I am she who exists in all fears
and strength in trembling.
I am she who is weak,
and I am well in a pleasant place.
I am senseless and I am wise.

Why have you hated me in your counsels?
For I shall be silent among those who are silent,
and I shall appear and speak,
Why then have you hated me, you Greeks?
Because I am a barbarian among the barbarians?
For I am the wisdom of the Greeks
and the knowledge of the barbarians.
I am the judgement of the Greeks and of the barbarians.
I am the one whose image is great in Egypt
and the one who has no image among the barbarians.
I am the one who has been hated everywhere
and who has been loved everywhere.
I am the one whom they call Life,
and you have called Death.
I am the one whom they call Law,
and you have called Lawlessness.
I am the one whom you have pursued,
and I am the one whom you have seized.
I am the one whom you have scattered,
and you have gathered me together.
I am the one before whom you have been ashamed,
and you have been shameless to me.
I am she who does not keep festival,
and I am she whose festivals are many.
I, I am godless,
and I am the one whose God is great.
I am the one whom you have reflected upon,
and you have scorned me.
I am unlearned,
and they learn from me.
I am the one that you have despised,
and you reflect upon me.
I am the one whom you have hidden from,
and you appear to me.
But whenever you hide yourselves,
I myself will appear.
For whenever you appear,
I myself will hide from you.
Those who have [...] to it [...] senselessly [...].

Take me [... understanding] from grief.
and take me to yourselves from understanding and grief.
And take me to yourselves from places that are ugly and in ruin,
and rob from those which are good even though in ugliness.
Out of shame, take me to yourselves shamelessly;
and out of shamelessness and shame,
upbraid my members in yourselves.
And come forward to me, you who know me
and you who know my members,
and establish the great ones among the small first creatures.
Come forward to childhood,
and do not despise it because it is small and it is little.
And do not turn away greatnesses in some parts from the smallnesses,
for the smallnesses are known from the greatnesses.

Why do you curse me and honor me?
You have wounded and you have had mercy.
Do not separate me from the first ones whom you have known.
And do not cast anyone out nor turn anyone away
[...] turn you away and [... know] him not.
[...].
What is mine [...].
I know the first ones and those after them know me.

But I am the mind of [...] and the rest of [...].
I am the knowledge of my inquiry,
and the finding of those who seek after me,
and the command of those who ask of me,
and the power of the powers in my knowledge
of the angels, who have been sent at my word,
and of gods in their seasons by my counsel,
and of spirits of every man who exists with me,
and of women who dwell within me.
I am the one who is honored, and who is praised,
and who is despised scornfully.
I am peace,
and war has come because of me.
And I am an alien and a citizen.
I am the substance and the one who has no substance.

Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me,
and those who are in my substance are the ones who know me.
Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me,
and those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me.
On the day when I am close to you, you are far away from me,
and on the day when I am far away from you, I am close to you.

[I am ...] within.
[I am ...] of the natures.
I am [...] of the creation of the spirits.
[...] request of the souls.
I am control and the uncontrollable.
I am the union and the dissolution.
I am the abiding and I am the dissolution.
I am the one below,
and they come up to me.
I am the judgment and the acquittal.
I, I am sinless,
and the root of sin derives from me.
I am lust in (outward) appearance,
and interior self-control exists within me.
I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone
and the speech which cannot be grasped.
I am a mute who does not speak,
and great is my multitude of words.

Hear me in gentleness, and learn of me in roughness.
I am she who cries out,
and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth.
I prepare the bread and my mind within.
I am the knowledge of my name.
I am the one who cries out,
and I listen.
I appear and [...] walk in [...] seal of my [...].
I am [...] the defense [...].
I am the one who is called Truth
and iniquity [...].

You honor me [...] and you whisper against me.
You who are vanquished, judge them (who vanquish you)
before they give judgment against you,
because the judge and partiality exist in you.
If you are condemned by this one, who will acquit you?
Or, if you are acquitted by him, who will be able to detain you?
For what is inside of you is what is outside of you,
and the one who fashions you on the outside
is the one who shaped the inside of you.
And what you see outside of you, you see inside of you;
it is visible and it is your garment.

Hear me, you hearers
and learn of my words, you who know me.
I am the hearing that is attainable to everything;
I am the speech that cannot be grasped.
I am the name of the sound
and the sound of the name.
I am the sign of the letter
and the designation of the division.
And I [...].
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[...] light [...].
[...] hearers [...] to you
[...] the great power.
And [...] will not move the name.
[...] to the one who created me.
And I will speak his name.

Look then at his words
and all the writings which have been completed.
Give heed then, you hearers
and you also, the angels and those who have been sent,
and you spirits who have arisen from the dead.
For I am the one who alone exists,
and I have no one who will judge me.

For many are the pleasant forms which exist in numerous sins,
and incontinencies,
and disgraceful passions,
and fleeting pleasures,
which (men) embrace until they become sober
and go up to their resting place.
And they will find me there,
and they will live,
and they will not die again."


Selection made from James M. Robinson, ed., The Nag Hammadi Library, revised edition. HarperCollins, San Francisco, 1990.

About Time

I'll make you believe in it
I'll brake your patterns
I'm gonna confuse you
You dont wanna compete with me
I'm the force of water
I'll drown you with tears
I'll spin your world
I'll make you lose your reference
I'm not like the others
I'm a creation of you
You asked for it
You didn't expect me
But now you better handle me

It's about time
We create something new

Show me your love
Persuade me and follow me around

And I'll make you confused
It's so good you won't believe it
You dont wanna go to war with me

I know you're heart from inside out
I now where you got it wrong
All this time
I know you better than them
Now I can deconstruct you
And we'll build a new

THE POWER OF PRAYER – Asking for Help.

POK II with Eitan Yardeni class VI

THE POWER OF PRAYER – Asking for Help.

Kabbalah has tools and technology to connect with the light. The light is always there.
Three column system like the bulb -> Positive pole= giving / Filament = restriction of the ego, reactive behavior / Negative pole = desire
Without the left column I can’t draw the light. We need to ask for it. I need a vessel, a container to draw the light = Will, Desire.
We need to apply restriction with our desire. To have the desire to overcome Satan I need help. Somehow I don’t have the strength despite the fact I wanna do it. For the blessings to be continuously the price is more restriction and it has to be for the sake of sharing. Without the light I can’t do it.
For non of us things are easy in every area of our lives, I’m not smart enough to do everything. Without the light I cant do it. 99% of the blessings that happen to us is the light. Ego is a small vessel. The idea of spiritual connection is building the desire for the light to assist me in any area of my life. I NEED HELP.
Worry= looking for solutions in my own brain. We need to open our heart beyond logic. Where do I need help?
The confidence I have with the light give me endless potential. When we are down we are too focused with one think that we forget to ask for help.
I need technology to make a connection. If I wanna call a friend that lives in Australia it’s not enough to have the desire, I need the technology, the telephone.
The light is infinite but in order to connect to it it has to be reduced to a level that I can handle it. Ancient kabbalist gave us wires to connect. The Hebrew letters are the bridge between the physical and the metaphysical. Hebrew= to transmit.
Babel Tower= negative control power. 2 secrets 1- unity 2- Hebrew letters. How to communicate with negative forces. Technology to access the 99% realm.
Why can’t a woman that dyes her hair stay blond forever? Because it’s not at in her DNA.
Metaphysical DNA = how big is my ego, how big is my desire, etc. Each one has a different process, a different belief system, a different spiritual DNA.
How can I change the DNA in the seed level?
Little changes in the DNA makes all the difference. Like the computer that works only with 0 and 1, each combination leads to a different path, the messages are infinite. Different sequences create different realities. When you combine the Hebrew letters you get infinite blessings. It’s about the energy of the letters. The eyes are the window of the soul, we just don’t see, we absorb the energy. One of the strongest tools to let the light in is using specific combination of letters.
The Zohar = Book of Splendor it’s about interpreting the 5 books of Moses, decoding the stories of the Torah. Connecting with the 8th level, Binah. Connecting with my perfect state. The light manifest itself in a way or another.

i got shocked, i confided to it, i entered a world of fantasies,
my mind opened inside a dream, and i've cried
i got scared, i got petrified, i got so excited i couldnt stop dancing, i feel so high i might never sleep again you are the strongest drug ive ever taken i dont know how to live with it so i've surrendered to the hands of god
i got used to it for one second then i got in drowned in awe by this powerful force of your existence that is my whole heart
because my love for you is bigger than anything that ever existed in this world
its so new that i dont know if i can learn how to live by it, im about to explode in glory
i connect to the thought of creation and i saw it all
i know you are inside of me

She dreams about an old Venetian mansion like me. I told her about my grandfather that went to war for Italy, I told her he was close to Mussolini and fought his heart out for a better life to his people. I told her he was a general a prisoner and a lawyer. She listened closely because she loves Italy, specifically Venice, like me. She told me her grandfather was a famous magician. I knew I've met her before. I read her book and I smile. She dissected me, sucked all my blood and left me dry and cold. We did witchcraft together. We kissed and died in fire. Then she can't stand being close to me, she runs away from me like a sneaky little fish. I think she's afraid of falling in love with me. She thinks I don't notice but I do. I felt it shining in her eyes when she looked at me. Then with a shy smile she looked down. She plays with the kids so lovingly and free, I can't play with the kids like that. I treat kids like adults because I'm more childish than them, I'm just a baby lioness but she likes me because I'm cold. She thinks I don't cry. She loves astrology and numbers like me. We don't speak the same language but she is a virgin like me.

Amor Netuniano

"O amor tem sido sempre para mim o maoir dos assuntos, ou antes, o único."
- Stendhal


Impossível
2) Causas Românticas - a necessidade de viver uma história em que os elos misteriosos sãoa trama envolvente. Herói e heroína marcam um encontro secreto, de preferência num labirinto, e vão disfarçados. Um não sabe bem quem é o outro ou como ele surgirá. Nesses casos, as pessoas gostam de aparecer em cada encontro, exibindo uma nova faceta de suas personalidades criativas; as surpresas sucessivas ajudam a manter o clima tenso. A difícil identificação e descoberta do outro é um elemnto muito excitante: cada dia uma nova máscara a desvelar, uma fantasia a identificar.

3) Exercício Criativo - o tempo dedicado à organização de esquemas extraordinários é gasto com enorme satifasção; a invenção de mil subterfúgios espertos e alguns efeitos especiais fazem parte do roteiro romântico e do exercício criatico do amor impossível. Frases imcompletas, gestos inacabados, olhares suspensos, muito bem ensaiados ao gosto de NEtuno - são exercícios de charme e sedução que vão enriquecer esse exercício amoroso

4)Separações Sucessivas - o prazer e a dor das separacões snao necessárias para os indivíduos que precisam destas interrupções contínuas para camuflar as situações limítrofes entre o êxtase atormentado da presença e a triteza da perda representada pela partida iminente. A certeza incerta da renovação da história é alimentada pela futura e hipotética alegria de uma volt, sempre duvidosa. A vivência constante do drama das separações encarrega-se de manter o amor num inalterável clima de incertezas, elevadas temperaturas e intensidade romântica invulgar.

6) O Tempo - tem duração discontínua e estranha. Saturno é vivido em sua carga máxima de alienação; o tempo de vivência e convivência dispara acelerado, escoa em segundos imperceptíveis; a partida é sofrida desde a chegada e lamentada com veemência. O relógio torna-se inimigo mortal - além do valor histórico, tem apenas a serventia de marcar o próximo encontro e ser conveniente com os momentos de espera.

7) Espaço - é adornado pela imaginação, qualquer que seja a locação da cena são experimentadas impressões paradisíacas. O local pouco importa, a paisagem e internalizada e ampliada pela beleza que mora dentro dessa alma tranportada pelo amor impossível. Quem ouvir desses seres amantes a descrição dos ambientes incomuns em sua "viagens" ficará pasmo ao verificar "in loco" a capacidade transfromista que esses estados febris ocasionam.


Possível
1) Simplicidade - Um pré-requisito e um prefácio do amor, é característica das pessoas mais descomplicadas, as que conseguem valorizar as coisas boas da vida que, muitas vezes, estão contidas na simplicidade do dia-a-dia. São os que conseguem ver a beleza de pôr-do-sol, a magnitude de uma bela manhã, o sabor divino de um pão... O grande prazer do simples é privilégio das naturezas mais sensíveis e mais sábias.

- do livro 'A Astrologia e as Dimensões do Ser'