Magic Land

'Magic Land' - 2010
photo collage by Diana Motta
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Love Captive

Love captive
So full of love
Internally
Im going to explode

My other half is inside of you
I'll take you by the hand
I'll make everything work out
I'll never leave you
I'll you never leave you alone

I know your heart by design
You belong to me
I've seen this before
I know where you got it wrong
You belong to me
I'm a love captive

Love captive
Trying to let go
So desperately
Burning desire that grows
Inside of me

Please don't take so long
It could only be you and me
The holy book mentioned it
We will make everything alright
You will see
Im so full of you
Im a love prisoner

I can't think about anything else
I ask God to show me
Birds dance in the sky
They write letters above me
They mentioned you and me

I came overseas
The light told me
You belong to me
We are one soul
We are the most beautiful
We will forever be

"Sou do tamanho do que vejo!" Cada vez que penso esta frase com toda a atenção dos meus nervos, ela me parece mais destinada a reconstruir consteladamente o universo. "Sou do tamanho do que vejo!" Que grande posse mental vai desde o poço das emoções profundas até às altas estrelas que se reflectem nele e, assim, em certo modo, ali estão.
E já agora, consciente de saber ver, olho a vasta metafísica objectiva dos céus todos com uma segurança que me dá vontade de morrer cantando. "Sou do tamanho do que vejo!" E o vago luar, inteiramente meu, começa a estragar de vago o azul meio-negro do horizonte.
Tenho vontade de erguer os braços e gritar coisas de uma selvageria ignorada, de dizer palavras aos mistérios altos, de afirmar uma nova personalidade larga aos grandes espaços da matéria vazia.

"Tenho fome da extensão do tempo, e quero ser eu sem condições."

I have this obsessive compulsive behavior I wanna get everything good as much as I possibly can until I stop enjoining it, I want fast, juicy, fresh and intense and now and more, I dont want it to go could or dull, I dont want to wait until that, I'm probably in another. But when I quit smoking I realized when I was waiting for my friend at her apt door, I called her she said she was right around the corner and then I step on the tree fence, I was high, I wanted to greet her a noble reception, I felt like those vigilant guards that look from above with their binoculars searching for fugitives. I felt a little bit like a child. when I was a little girl I loved to jump and hold on things, to walk on narrow fences and challenge myself, as if Ii was in the middle of the rain forest, with the dew green leave falling through the branches as I walk on the dangerous catwalk of my exploratory tree house overcoming random obstacles. But she took much longer than being just around the corner. And I stay there on the top of the fence, very childish, very girly, very self analytical, very serious. Very. Why I think Im always very? Whats the parameter of being very, maybe other people as just like me but I just dont know... bur they dont look like they are, I might know as if im looking to myself from outwards that a have a face, a shine in the eyes that denounces me as being so intensively analyzing me that I would have noticed. Why do I think so much of me as if me was the most important thing in the world, exclusively, by far? Like I could solve all my problems as being all the problems in the world just by knowing myself. I have a feeling that was once said. Other people came, I thought they were my friend and her boyfriend but they weren't. They must be looking at me and thinking, is this girl ok? maybe she's a little crazy, how old is she? She looks too old to be stepping in the fence... And then I realized what I would be doing before I had quit cigarettes, I would be smoking a cigarette, like the proper moment to smoke a cigarette, convenient, alone at night, waiting for a friend or just wandering as usual. But how could I one day forget of this addictive compulsive exacerbated desire to exhale smoke through my throat so pleasurably, anytime of waiting, once so essentially needed? Why no one has ever told me, yes, its ok not to smoke, you really dont need it, I swear. If you had swore to me, saying I know it looks impossible, I thought it was impossible too, but its not, I Swear. I would have believe it, just tell me something is possible. It is what it is no doubt, so simply. Why is everybody doing it pale green and pink? I thought I did that first long time ago, now, make mine metallic purple, thanks.

NOTES

Its all about consciousness.
There is a system.
The Creator is a sharing force,

How do I know what to choose?
Every move we take in life we want to take energy. When you get angry you get light. Everything we do is to connect to the light.
Give a 100%.
If you pick the wrong person give 100%, you get 100% feedback from the universe.
When you play poker you play with the people not with the cards.
To solve the problem change your mind. Everything in life is neutral.

When is not clear how can you correct it?
There is always someone you can help and someone that can help you.
Ask for help and help somebody else.
What can I do in that scenario to share?
Break your ego, ask for help.

How to know your tikkun?
What pisses you off in other people. Some things get under your skin.
We like when someone else goes down - reactively
To want to be acknowledged = ego, reactive
Spiritual = letting go.
Life is how we react to it.
There is nothing new under the sun.
We recreate ideas that already existed. Everything is already created.
The most successful brokers share deals. They are not afraid of losing it. BECAUSE THE LIGHT IS INFINITE
The secret is to keep the seed level, I’ll do anything to make it happen. Seed level because you believe in what you are doing.
Need for personal acknowledgment diminish our vessel.
The opponent wants you to think in a limited way.
The system works.
You put energy it comes back to you.

we are all responsible for global atrocities. We all need to take responsibility.
Your correction – things you cant let go of judgment. Shift your consciousness from judgment to observation.
Do what you need to do in the 1% and let go of the results because the light can give you new things. If you hold on you limit yourself.
There is no coercion in spirituality. The Creator cannot force you to do anything,
You will never be put in a situation you cannot handle.
When in difficult moments we expand your vessel to go through that situation.
By going through that our soul expands.
Te reason we came to existence in a kabalistic point of view is to expand.
Successful people embraced their tikkun – don’t beat the problem up.
No time, space and motion perfection exists right now.
We cant separate cause and effect. Time just makes it seem it doesn't exist.
.

It's all an illusion.

Music


vocals: Diana Motta guitar: Winslow the 3rd keyboard: Nahana Schelling drums: Angela Chen


Esse Drama


Hoje o dia amanhaceu escuro
Voce se escondeu em algum lugar do mundo
Na minha cama imensa, cansada
Eu choro sozinha pensando quando você volta

Por que você nao olha pra mim
Por que você não diz que me ama
Não aguento mais esse drama

Não sei por onde você se esconde
Eu vou atrás de você, me diga aonde


guitar: Winslow the 3rd bass: Nahana keyboard: Diana drums: Angela

"La morte non è nel non poter comunicare ma nel non poter più essere compresi."


P.P.P. - Una disperata vitalitá, 1964 -

I see your soul like I see myself
Your face is revealed to me I hear your voice
The secret has been broken and now
I wait for the day we will come together
There is always a hope somewhere that lasts forever

Pekudei

"God made names on earth because they have significance.
'A sun and a shield' are the secret of a whole name.
Namely, thought grace and honor are drawn at ease, and a shield is drawn vigorously by whoever is beset by enemies, and they merge into one principle."

- The Zohar